Ex- Factor by Lauryn Hill

It could all be so simple
But you'd rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle
And we both end up with scars
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

Is this just a silly game
That forces you to act this way
Forces you to scream my name
Then pretend that you can't stay
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

Hook:
No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain't workin'
It ain't workin'
And when I try to walk away
You'd hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy
This is crazy

I keep letting you back in
How can I explain myself
As painful as this thing has been
I just can't be with no one else
See I know what we got to do
You let go and I'll let go too
'Cause no one's hurt me more than you
And no one ever will

Repeat Hook

Care for me, care for me
I know you care for me

There for me, there for me
Said you'd be there for me

Cry for me, cry for me
You said you'd die for me

Give to me, give to me
Why won't you live for me
(Repeat) 




this is for Him, because he finally realized how much he means to me <333.

First Ink *

Even though my site is undergoing some construction, I decided to blog on my first tattoo! I've wanted a tattoo since I can remember. Over the years I've changed my mind tons of times as to what I would get. One day I was in the car with my mom and sister, and my sister was talking about a movie La Vita E Bella (which means 'a beautiful life'). After I heard her say that I knew right away that's what I wanted. So I finally told my mom I was going to do it and made the appointment. I was excited for weeks and when the day came I was nervous/estatic. So the day came and my best friend Dineen was taking me. I went to Illustrated Ink which I had heard and seen they do great work. We got there and I was a little apprehensive. Let me just say it didn't look like the inside of the shops where Kat Von D works. So we waited for about an hour and the tattoo artist finally got there. I was sitting in the chair nervous as hell and once I heard the needle start I almost lost it. Right away it didn't hurt so bad, but then I started feeling nauceous and sweating and I swore I was gonna throw up. Alex (the artist) told Dineen to go get me a candy bar or something. So after that I was fine, in pain but fine. The tattoo took about an hour, and some parts were more painful than others. I didn't make a sound though. I believe I can tolerate pain pretty well so I refused to be one of those punk girls who cried and screamed the whole time. I will admit I made some crazy ass faces though, lol. So there was a guy and his girlfriend there and the guy was talking to me, pretty much the whole time I was getting it done. He asked me what the quote meant and why I was getting it. I explained to him, my life has been anything but beautiful, but I hope that one day it will be. He told me he liked my attitude and that he believed this tattoo would bring me luck. Now that I think about it, I really hope it does! Well anyway, the pain and time was worth it. I'm in love with this tattoo and I can't wait to get more.

UNDER CONSTRUCTION*

I am going to re-build this whole site. It won't be so much on celebrity news & gossip, but focused more on myslef and pretty much anything i find interesting. Stay tuned :)